Downside of Independency..

The down side of being independent.

The fear of everyone concluding that you’re so put together that you don’t need anyone else.

I mean everyone knows the point of a relationship is to help one another grow, right?

So, if you have the ability to solve most of your problems without anyone’s  input, then you’r ok.

“You know what you problem is? You don’t need me.”

Wow, I didn’t know that I had to need someone in order to want them around.

It’s a headache, a never ending circle type cycle.

So, why can’t I be self sufficient and just want your company?

Why? Do you need me to fulfil you need of being needed.

You ain’t air, I dont need you to live.

You’re electricity, in the twenty-fourth century.

I work hard to make sure you dont get turned off.

But, since I don’t need you, you think you could just get lost?

Why can’t anyone see that my independency is because I learnt young that people aren’t dependable.

I charish the thought of someone not misunderstanding me.

I dont want to depend on others when I can learn to conqure my situations without any bother to others.

I strive everyday in every way to be self sufficient.

But then, theirs this part of me that naggs, “dont become to whole.”

Because, people believe that if you always got a solution then your this cocky, know it all, wanna be wise, young ass guru.😦

So, I cant just pay attention to others and learn from what I see? 😏

I dont have to experience breaking my bone to know it hurts.

I know what pain is just from living life.

Talk about the down side of being self sufficient.

Why, I got to be broken and needy for someone to stay around?

I enjoy hearing others point of view.

And, I do truly consider other ways of living life.

Its just that most dont know they left from right.

It’s also a struggle to find another self sufficient person that doesn’t want to be needed.

I dont want to be needed, thats like having a grown child.

I want someone that makes me exhale, not inhale and think “now I got to come help you”,  and I’m tired from helping myself.

Maybe its me trying to strive for perfection.

But, what’s wrong with that?

This world be double talking, “you can’t ever stop growing and becoming better.”

Then out the other side say…

“You can’t be perfect”.

I’f I’m not striving for perfection, then what are we growing for?

Well, I dont know about others but, I know self sufficiency is better than dependency.

But that does not mean that I want or need to be alone.

Can we be whole together? 😫😟